LT; My thought too, about the age.
When you get it all figured out...please clue me in, ok. I stopped trying to find anwers to so many of my own questions when I started living life according to my own standards. Oh, I can still enjoy a deep conversation, but that's where it ends because I don't know what another person needs in their life, nor do I care to try and sway them to my way of thinking. {I got old}.
Sometimes, too, I think it's some sort of mind $uck game that some just like to play because they can. Unfortunetly I've seen this in older people that were not looking for insight, they just liked screwing around with people.
I found it's more important too understand myself {to thine ownself be true} then worry to much about what other's think.
I wish you well in your endeavor for finding, as I read, that "one" answer that will put all the others to rest.
Granny, of the "I quite looking for the burning bush a long time ago" class.